Former mixed martial artist War Machine has been keeping a journal while in jail for brutally assaulting his ex-girlfriend Christy Mack. On Thursday an entry written earlier this month, before his suicide attempt, was posted on his Twitter account.
War Machine's Brother Offers Insight to Fragile State of Mind That Caused Suicide Attempt
In the entry War Machine, born Jonathan Koppenhaver, discusses his views on forgiveness. He explains how he used to shun the concept of forgiveness and instead plot revenge and "fantasize about carrying it out." But now with his current situation, his mind-set has changed.
"Well, I'm done trying the same tactics that have failed me over and over again. I want to be happy; I want to live a happy life," he wrote. "Will forgiveness work like magic? I dunno, that'd be great if it did though. One thing it can't do, is hurt. In fact, I'm pretty sure it will most likely speed up my healing process either way. Maybe all of this happened just so that I'd make this one important change."
War Machine Tries to Justify Assault of Christy Mack in Suicide Letter
Throughout the entry, which can be read in full here, Koppenhaver quotes the Bible, wallows in self-pity and even talks to his fans.
"If you are a fan of mine please don't harass Christy, just let her be," he wrote. "Don't respond to all the people spewing hate against me. If you're a fan of mine, just please analyze and learn from my situation, and apply it to your own life."
In probably the most shocking and delusional part of the post, Koppenhaver states, "I deserved this, she deserved this, he deserved this, and we are also all innocent at the same time. I just hope to one day have the opportunity to put this new way of thinking to use, out there in the real world. I can't wait until this court nightmare is over and I can begin the next chapter in my life."
TMZ reported last week that Koppenhaver tried to hang himself in his jail cell in the Clark County (Nev.) Detention Center but was stopped by a correctional officer. Sources said an officer passing by Koppenhaver's cell called out to him and he was unresponsive and then found him sitting on the ground with his feet up on the bunk bed.
Koppenhaver faces 32 felony counts, including two counts of attempted murder, and pleaded not guilty at his first court appearance in September. He is accused of attacking Mack, born Christine Mackinday, and Corey Thomas in her Las Vegas home on Aug. 8. The alleged assault left Mackinday with multiple injuries including a lacerated liver, 18 broken bones and two missing teeth.
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